Week 0 – Real Talk
Alright internet friends – it’s time for some real talk. I’m burned out and I have been for a long time. I’ve been grasping at straws, spending a lot of time trying to figure out what’s going on, and I think it’s time to look in the mirror and just admit it. I’m not surprised, frankly I’m surprised it’s taken this long. It’s how my personality tends to manifest, when you’re either 100 or 0, it comes with the territory. That’s why some time at zero can be nice, but when its time to find 100 again, sometimes it’s not where you left it. Likewise I think it’s a hard thing to admit to, when you’ve built yourself around a sport like this, or even a hobby like this, and then suddenly can’t find the same passion, what do you tell yourself? I’m not sure I have the answer, but I’m going to do my best to come up with one.
Around the internet you’ll find all kinds of posts about project 365 this or that, most of them are photo journeys of one sort or another to get you to appreciate your life or someone you love, etc. Some of them are even about fitness, squatting everyday, or running, or what have you. MobilityWod started as KStar and a phone and 365 days of videos, man those were the days. In any case, I’ve decided I need to reinvest in this, and the best way I could come up with to hold myself accountable was, shocker, this blog. I’ve decided to adapt that structure for this, a post, every week, about whatever feels most poignant. I want to get writing again, get back to what made me passionate about these things. Somewhere along the lines lately I’ve lost that connection, and when the hamster wheel stopped after finals, I was forced to realize that. So I’m calling this week 0, not really the start, more of a foreword.
May was a roller coaster of a month. I tried my best to keep things rolling but after I finished finals on the 4th, I realized I’d been burning the candle at both ends for too long. I touched on this in my last post, and by touched on, I mean wrote an entire rambly post about. Long story short I took a little time off. I came back and things were okay for awhile, nothing magical, managed to PR my backsquat for the first time in a year, but nothing else, which was odd but I’ll take it. Then I drove to Chicago, flew to New York, drove from New York back to Chicago, then drove from Chicago to Saint Louis, then slept for 4 days. By the time I woke up it was this week. I came back to train and promptly found all the problems I had left. The same lightheaded workouts, the same lingering injuries, that I’m now fortunate to be handling with the Marc Pro Plus I was lent. But basically it answered the question, turns out just leaving your problems behind for a week, doesn’t solve them. So now it’s time to start solving.
Here’s to solutions! See you all for week 1 on Monday!
Oh yeah – did Tommy V before regionals – turns out 27 rope climbs is a lot, especially when the resulting rope burn gets infected. Gotta love IV antibiotics! Huge shout out to the folks at urgent care, a ton of them Crossfit which would’ve been really cool under different circumstances.
Shocker – Cooper makes a pretty awesome, though kind of clingy road trip companion. This is about hour 2, of the 15 hour drive to Chi town.
And last but certainly not least, the real reason I was in New York was for my sister’s college graduation. I couldn’t be prouder of all the work she’s done and of the woman she’s grown into the last few years. Pumped to have her back in Saint Louis for a few years. I don’t get gushy very often but I’m taking the opportunity now, it’s my blog I’ll do what I want! If you want ice cream for breakfast I won’t stop you, let me have this. Love ya Hal!